fifteen days.

“Is your heart right? Then be humble and watchful. You are not yet in heaven, but in the world. You are in the body. The devil is near you, and never sleeps. Oh, keep your heart with all diligence! Watch and pray lest you fall into temptation. Ask Christ Himself to keep your heart for you. Ask Him to dwell in it, and reign in it, and garrison it, and to put down every enemy under His feet.” ~ by: J.C. Ryle, Old Path

lately, the questions i've been asked the most have been, "how do you feel?," "are you excited?," "what else do you have left to plan?" i thought i'd take the easy way out and blog it. mahaha. (i'll kill two birds with one stone and randomly insert photos from the bridal shower here too. randomonstrosity).

"how do you feel?"

(commence the random insertion of beautiful photography. courtesy of: ms. hannahmichelle and a more recent addition, dianecho).

• well, is anyone tired of hearing of how i'm doing yet? haha i'm sure tired of trying to trying to explain it. the difficulty is in finding a way to communicate this with brevity. there's a lot of junk-a-lunk in the trunk-a-dunk. i'm, of course, over-JOYED that i will become tim's wife in just 1/2 a month. it's amazing to see how the Lord can transform this heart that was so desirous of anything but the call to become a biblical woman to trusting in the life He now has given me in the Spirit to become a wife. i am thankful for His provision of tim in my life. we're both young and have much to learn, but i am daily humbled by tim's patient leadership over me.
  
  
• but, that decision and this walk of life is not without its struggles. i am naturally inclined to change and excitement, to academia and enterprise, to travel and cultural humanism. it would be a great lie if you heard from me that getting married has erased all of my former desires and passions and that i've achieved my life's ambition by taking this step towards marriage. granted, i see those things waning with time and growth, i'm still eager to believe that none of those things (listed above) are bad things for women. on the contrary, they can equip us to serve and submit to men, and God will use the skills we learn in the way He chooses. but of course, He will use us regardless of how skilled or unskilled we are. He uses the lowest of low to bring Himself the greatest amount of glory. and that's the one thing i've been learning with greater humility. with where i'm at in life, as a woman of God, i am being taught to live for different things, to desire Christ in me and the life i have in righteousness.

  "For those who live according to the flesh set their minds on the things of the flesh, but those who live according to the Spirit set their minds on the things of the Spirit" - Romans 8:5

• i'm a little loopy right now, to be honest. there's a never-ending stream of things to do and i'm happy to do them, but if you try talking to me and i seem a little cuckoo for coco puffs, you know why.
  
  
• i'm happy, happy, happy, happy, happy.
  

"are you excited?"

• uh...YEAH! equal parts nervous, but definitely really excited.
  
• what am i happy for? i get to spend my life with my best friend. we will be done with wedding planning. we can begin our new lives together. the list goes on and on and on. there is MUCH to be thankful for.

"what else do you have left to plan?"

• twiddle my thumbs and love my fiance and beep beep boo doo wop bop dop doop.
  
• picking up our wedding bands
• creating playlists on ipods
• cutting/folding place cards and programs
• breaking in my killer shoes
• buying last minute doo-dads
• paying a bajillion dollars to our vendors
• final dress fitting
• sending out time lines
• dum dee dum doo durrum parrum pum pum pum.
  

oh yeah! we had our e-shoot session with nate and jaclyn (theimageisfound.com) who were recently named best of the best in wedding photography on junebug! we actually did that ages ago, but what with the holidays and all...i'll post up pictures later.

(on a side note. i was perusing through a Book on Blogging at barnes & noble. they have a katrillion tips on how to get higher traffic on your blog. i found that i did most of the things they recommended anyway, but i was a little turned off. one of the ones i donut do that they recommend is to ask a question to my readers. how weird is that? let me get down on my soapbox and hand my ersatz microphone to you. there's nothing wrong with that, if you were a blog designed for stimulating convos. if it's a brain dump/writing blog like mine, it would come across a bit phony if you ask me...).

random question: so how are YOU feeling?